simple. dark.

i hate dem ..

i truly hate dem ..

they irritates me so damn much ..

wadever i say and do..

will forever be wrong ..

it makes me wonder ..

wad am i suppose to do ?

im tired of crying ..

im tired of hiding ..

im tired of tolerating ..

and im tired of not saying everything out ..

i feel like a puppet ..

being held on my limbs ..

unable to move..

without ur commands ..

im only able to move ..

because u asked me to ..

is tat wad u wan ?

but its wad i dont wan ..

im stressed out ..

yet ..

do u even noe ?

i doubt so ..

thanks to laogong ..

for listening to my naggin ..

consoling me ..

and tryin to make me stop cryin ..

i feel so fucked up ..

i duno wad i wan ..

im learning to cherish u more ..

but time doesnt allow me to ..

im learning to understand more ..

however ..

im glad after we hang up the call ..

u smsed me ..

saying .......

"laopo .. dont think so much ba..

i love you and i really do..

and will always try to be by your side when you need me de ba"

me:"i wan to be a princess. i wanna be wilful and unreasonable sometimes..

ok?> thanks anyway.. im comforted to noe i haf you"

"later you must remember to go and eat k

or laogong will angry and beat your butt"

thanks laogong ..

you nv fail to cheer me up when im sad ..

or mayb im easy to coax laa ..

hmmm ..

but anyway ..

i feel safe with u ard ..

i wanna be protected by you ..

i wan u to be my knight in armour ..

because i only wan u ..

ure e person i can thrust my heart to you ..

ure e person i can hug and cry ..

ure e person i can show u my ugliness ..

because no matter wad ..

u'll stil be by my side ..

i wanna grow up ..

leave tiz family ..

and be happy ..

alothough i noe i owe u ..

but since u gave birth to me ..

shouldnt u bring me up ??

im selfish ..

but u forced me to ..

i didnt wanna take up smokin again ..

but problems made me wanna ..

i feel bad when im askin laogong to quit

yet im smokin once more..

but i gt e temptations ..

now when im chattin with rachel in msn ..

i feel glad and happy ..

i wanna go back to life when i loved my folks and my life ..

and not cuttin myself when i had probs ..

i wanna be normal ..

i wanna be anyone on e street ..

because i am very normal like anyone else ..

pls dont treat me like im strong ..

because im totally not ..

wad is so wrong ??

i am missing laogong again alrdy ..

had not much time together today ..

it our anniversary ..

so wad ?

we've gt NO TIME TOGETHER !!

i hate dem ..

I HATE DEM !!

seriously ..

its gettin on my nerves ..

but i'll tolerate more ..

gonna slp soon ..

im tired ..

my eyesd are puffy from all e cryin ..

good nite laogong ..

i love you ..

♥ say me weak;
i aint strong