simple. dark.

everytime i close my eyes, i see him ..

everytime i tried to sleep, i thought of him ..

the only thing i want now is an answer, yet he doesnt wanna say it out ...

if he didnt hug me that last time that day ..

i would be able to leave peacefully ..

but now, bcuz of his touch, i gain hope again ..

yet he doesnt wanna tell me what i shld do with that hope ..

and now whenever i close my eyes, i think of that night ..

we were still fine ..

maybe he just wanted to give me a good memory ..

but if that is so, why cant he just give me an answer ??

he just drags and drags ..

i will let go if he wanna just be friends ..

i will hang on, if he wants us to be back ..

but now, when im stuck in between, i feel terrible ..

i cant concentrate on my studies ..

i cant do no shit ..

what i need is just an answer ..

ive cried till my eyes hurt ..

when i went to a recent wedding ..

ive thought of how it would be like if it was my own wedding ..

but when that thought comes, it hurts ..

reality hurts ..

but now, when im not afraid of the reality, he doesnt wanna let me know what he wants ..

he just left me hanging there ..

i didnt wanna guess his answer, bcuz i didnt wan him to say i didnt understand him ..

i wanted his direct answer, yet he doesnt give me ..

i aint the girl everyone knew anymore ..

i kept everything in my heart ..

i kept him in my heart ..

i wanted to let go ..

but i didnt know how ..

i need him to let me go ...

but he didnt ..

instead, bcuz of his disappearance, he hanged on to me ..

i wouldnt wanna ask anyone what i shld do alrdy ..

bcuz i know ppl ardd me has tried to wake me up ..

i was the one to ignore everything ..

and continue being dumb ..

i was the one being blindly persistent ..

but right now, i only need his answer ..

Labels: an answer

♥ say me weak;
i aint strong

hais ..

so much has happened recently ..

family ..

him ..

myself ..

everything happened that i cant even fucking concentrate on my studies ..

damn it !!

im afraid of failing again ..

im afraid of everything ..

im afraid of being alone ...

once again ...

♥ say me weak;
i aint strong

sometimes ure hot, sometimes ure cold ..

u make me dont understand ..

how shld i treat u ..

shld i treat u hot and cold, just like how u did?

can you pls tell me what i shld do?

last chance is given ..

deadline is reaching ..

what to decide?

♥ say me weak;
i aint strong

3 and a half yrs ago .. we were still in the same class having fun ..

after when we've started out ..

being together..

graduated ..

and everything that we've done together ..

i thought we were inseparable ..

but u proved me wrong ..

we are meant to be separated ..

maybe we were nv meant to be together ..

i rmbed how things were like when we first started ..

u cant get over with your HER i cant get over with my HIM ..

but yet we've both come to a stage when we both started to love each other ..

when we both started to be afraid of losing each other ..

but now, we have also come to a stage where we are going to be separated..

between us, we do not know where is the love anymore ..

sometimes i do wonder why other couples can give in to each other ..

even when they had problems, they solve it together ..

but as for u, u chose to abandon this r/s ..

maybe im not worthy of ur love ..

not worthy of ur time and attention ..

i aint worthy of everything .. maybe ..

i dun know whether will i still be in ur heart ..

i dun know and i wont know ..

the day i left u, u said this 3 yrs r/s isnt that easy to forget ..

but now i cant say much anymore ..

maybe i wont go for another r/s .. anymore ..

i still rmb the time when we first dated ..

the first day we met together as a couple ..

the first time we held our hands ..

the first time when ur lips touched mine ..

the first time when your hands wrap ard my waist ..

the first time when u gave me that ring ..

the first time when u said u love me fully ..

the first time when we watch movie ..

the first time when we skip sch and go airport ..

the first time when i see u slp ..

the first time when u saw me slp ..

the first time when we hugged together ..

the first time when we go out for date ..

the first time when u celebrated my birthday ..

the first time when i celebrated yours ..

the first time when we hang the pacifier on our phones ..

the first time when u bring me out at night ..

the first time when we went tuition together ..

the first time when we walked home together ..

the first time i went up to your grandma's hse for dinner ..

the first time we studied in the library together ..

the first time when u got angry with me and left me at the mrt station ...

the first time when u quarreled with me ..

the first time when u say sorry to me ..

the first time when we had fun at the toystore..

the first time when u ask me for patch up ..

the first time when u i bought gifts for u ..

the first time when we went to buy our second ring ..

the first time when u say things to hurt me ..

the first time when we both go into poly ..

the first time when u got your bike and fetch me ard ..

the first time when we went out for supper that late ..

the first time when we celebrated christmas ..

the first time when u give me presents for christmas ..

the first time that i got a crystal pacifier pendant from u ..

the first time u got me a make-up ..

the first time u let me put make up on u ..

the first time when u go on the casino ship with me ..

the first time when u left for hong kong and i cried a whole week..

the first time when u said u cried while thinking of me in HK ..

the first time i felt touched by your protection ..

the first time when u almost beat someone whom bullied me ..

the first time when we quarreled because of a third party ..

the first time we both hugged a pillow and cried together ..

the first time i saw u cry ..

the first time i cried in your arms, and when ure asking me why ..

the first time when we had the same person we cherished, but we had to give up ..

the first time when i bought u a shirt ..

the first time when i see u, and theres only u in my eyes ..

but however, this is the last time we bid goodbye ...

thank you for being in my life ..

thank you for being by my side ..

thank you for all the things you've done ..

thank you for all the love you've showered on me ..

thank you for loving me ..

thank you for everything .......

from this day onwards, we are separated ..

from this day on, we'll go our own ways ..

up to this day, i will bury the love and start anew ...

until the end of this day, i still love you ..

and anyway, i still have to say, THANK YOU .......

Jasline

with the last love...

Labels: Jasline and Jarrell, Our Final Chapter

♥ say me weak;
i aint strong

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♥ say me weak;
i aint strong

our romance had a good start but a bad ending ....

and things like this is what we couldnt have predict ..

bcuz u give up easily ..

u dont lie like other guys does ..

u dont flirt like others do ..

u dont do things to hurt me like others ..

but your words can pull me down from heaven alrdy ..

if u really do love me,

maybe we'll be fated again; or maybe not ..

~~im hurt ..~~

♥ say me weak;
i aint strong

its tiring to keep up with his pace ..

sometimes i feel like givin up ..

but i dont bear to ..

i just feel exhausted ..

♥ say me weak;
i aint strong

damn assignments, im bored to death ..

i guess i'll not slp tonight to complete my assignments ........

♥ say me weak;
i aint strong

kind of tired, when everything seems to squeeze into my tight fitting schedule ..

microeconomics tml ..

finance on thurs ..

otqm and MA on sat ..

everythign makes me cant breathe ..

especially u ..

♥ say me weak;
i aint strong

oh gosh, havent been updating my blog recently....

busy with stupid assignments ..

well, wanted to ask him that qn again ..

but however, qn avoided again ..

tired of asking so kinda thinking i shall not ask alrdy ...

***

well, haven been shopping online for very long ..

so just nice i saw some nice foundations and loose powder ..

firstly, palgantong theatrical powder..

its actually seen in sasa, ive seen it and since i saw it in a blogshop and its cheaper, so i went ahead and try ..

just got to wait and see when is the owner free to pass me the items ..

secondly, close to u (shills) ..

its some sort of foundation also but cuz no stocks now, i had to get something else ..

so in replace, im tinking of getting shills EGF 5 in 1 moouse foundation ..

looks rather nice and special ..

but hopefully it would suit me .. (:

now ive got to talk to the blogshop owner and see how things goes ...

once ive tried the products, i'll blog about it .. (:

loves ..

♥ say me weak;
i aint strong