Tuesday, March 31, 2009 @ 6:05 PM
ppl, sch starts tml ..
shit rite ?
on april fool's day ..
wtf ..
im rather bored by it ..
i wanna go out ..
yet i cant ..
worse ..
blog tml or something ..
nid to help huiru do something also ..
sigh ~
* i miss him badly ..
♥ say me weak;
i aint strong
Monday, March 30, 2009 @ 8:05 PM
雨过天晴了 ..
*hope we can go out on wed successfully .. (:
♥ say me weak;
i aint strong
@ 8:01 AM
i want him back by my side .. ):
* i love him and miss him so badly ..
♥ say me weak;
i aint strong
Sunday, March 29, 2009 @ 8:05 AM
i want him to calm down and tink ..
then talk ..
while i duno whether can he do it or not ...
***
im so exhausted today ..
i havent been slpin last nite ..
yet ..
my father ask me to go his stall work ..
FUCK !!
* and ive gt a terrible sore throat liao .. ):
♥ say me weak;
i aint strong
Saturday, March 28, 2009 @ 10:50 AM
first to post pictures of mummy's birthday ..
i bought her a blue rose and a cake ..
cake from Jurong point-icing room..
nice eh ?
mummy's birthday i treated her to lunch at billy bombers ..
and cost me a bomb ..
2 of us eat $60 ..
wtf ..
after tt went home and rest ..
***
had an unhappy day last nite ..
morning to afternoon was fine ..
but nite was terrible ..
gosh !
and ended up i didnt slp ..
ok, panda eyes are coming out alrdy and ..
damn it !
its obvious ..
sorry ppl, i noe some of u saw me and got quite a shocked on wad happened to me..
i looked lyk a ghost i noe ..
sry uh !
sigh ..
wads this abt ...?
i also duno ..
*just slightly confused abt wad am i supposed to do ..
**and wad am i holding on ..?
but i noe ..
in my heart,
there's still u ..
♥ say me weak;
i aint strong
Thursday, March 26, 2009 @ 10:32 AM
sometimes i realise ..
im nt somebody anymore ..
* im nt tt special someone anymore .. ):
♥ say me weak;
i aint strong
Wednesday, March 25, 2009 @ 8:30 PM
POSITIVE ..
thats wad his answer was ..
but he didnt wanna give me any false hope ..
so i also duno wad else shld i be tinkin ..
hopefully ..
we could talk things thru ..
***
mummy says we might be moving over to grandma's house ..
ok, im terribly fucked up ..
cuz my opinion is not being heard ..
i didnt lyk it tt way ..
sigh ~
someone pls hear me whine pls !! ):
**
today went to 'visit' my 2 ah gongs and my aunt ..
which is e graveyard ..
went 2 places ..
mandai and senja ..
its far ..
but when i saw my ah gongs and aunt .
i rmb how they treated me and wanted to cry ..
damn !
but i cant ..
when im not e most closest ...
as in my folks are more close to them of cuz ..
even crying has to be hidden ..
Wtf !
*
and now, i bloody miss him ..
i didnt know wad he do today and stuff ..
im starting to doubt myself ..
nt him ..
god, pls gif me hope ..
and hope pls give this r/s another chance ..
we're approaching our 3 yrs anniversary alrdy ..
hope we'll be able to go out tat day ..
HOPEFULLY !!
* onli he can grant this wish ..
♥ say me weak;
i aint strong
Monday, March 23, 2009 @ 9:17 PM
i love him ..
i miss him so badly ..
*esp for the hug he gave me this morning .. ):
♥ say me weak;
i aint strong
@ 4:02 PM
i appreciated his love for me ..
and i love him ..
i was so happy when yati told me she felt that he love me alot ..
everybody says so of course ..
but ..
why cant u show me ur love ?
can i have u back by my side again ??? ):
♥ say me weak;
i aint strong
@ 2:22 PM
i wished im a baby right now ..
i wanna be a baby ..
cuz then i wouldnt have so much troubles and problems in my heart ..
im on e verge of a breakdown soon ..
having to find job ..
having to worry abt problems between u and me ..
im so exhausted ..
u could get mad and change ur face within a second ..
yet for me ?
i couldnt do anything ..
i need not know ur answer from u ..
if tat special day we are able to go out ..
mayb i shld laugh out happily alrdy ..
but however ..
i just hope if we could go out that day ..
it'll be best ..
it'll be very good ..
and mayb i shld be pleased and contented alrdy ..
hope so ...
im exhausted ..
and i tink i shld need a rest ...
now ..
sleep ~
♥ say me weak;
i aint strong
Friday, March 20, 2009 @ 5:23 PM
ok, god bless-ed me alrdy ..
not wasting my efforts on studying ..
ive gt my results lerx ..
Business Maths - B+
English for business - B+
Managing ppl & organization - C+
although ive gt C, and no As,
im glad i passed all subjects ..
thanks to ppl who helped me with my bloody maths .. (:
jarrell, shaun ..
and my classmates ..
xiao pei, wan nee, catrine, vickka ... etc ...
special thanks to them .. (:
♥ say me weak;
i aint strong
@ 3:25 PM
and now im fucking worried about my results .. ):
wish me luck ppl ..
im gonna be dead in 1 hour and 38mins .. =X
♥ say me weak;
i aint strong
@ 9:19 AM
well ..
mummy says im god yesterday ..
or to say ive become immortal ..
i survived on :
1 small piece of pandan cake,
1 cup of tea,
2 mouth of 'fan-choy',
1 small plate of fries &
plain water ..
yesterday ..
no dinner no lunch and stuffs ..
and weirdly ..
im not hungry at all ..
pray to me, call me god ..
if im god,
i shall grant myself good grades for my exams ..
which in 7.5hours more i will see ...
hope to pass of cuz ...
if i really can be god, i want to grant myself love also ..
but sadly,
im not ..
nevermind abt it .. -.-
* just that i miss him badly ... ):
♥ say me weak;
i aint strong
Wednesday, March 18, 2009 @ 10:49 AM
私は彼を欠場 ..心の底では私の心に ..〜だけれども,私は彼を見た..私はまだ彼には多くのミス ..私は彼の抱擁愛 ..私は彼の愛 ..今私は真剣に希望 ..彼は私となっています ..* translation by google
and i admit its broken japanese ..
but its nt meant for others to understand ..
so its ok .. (:
♥ say me weak;
i aint strong
Tuesday, March 17, 2009 @ 10:06 AM
sometimes i wonder why our love is so fragile ..
just a small minor thing we could quarrel upside down ..
i thought that was the past ..
i thought we've grown up and matured ..
i thought we no longer quarrel due some small stupid minor things ..
yet, we still did ...
we should grow up alrdy i suppose ..
i was childish in any way to doubt u ..
but if u ever did let me noe abt certain things ..
i wouldnt ..
yet, u made me worry ..
made me feel unsecure and uncertain ..
and this are all the things that made me doubt u ..
no one would like to doubt another party esp when in e r/s ..
i rmb after that period of time when we broke up due to ur first ...
i trusted u ..
u let me feel secured and all ..
but after that ..
u've started it again ..
u made me cant trust u ..
esp after that msn incident ..
its nt tat im being particularly sensitive abt this ..
its just that u've hurt me thru it ..
mayb because we haven got to our talk yet ..
i cant simply just forget it like that ..
and it all depends on you whether u want to have this talk ..
to at least open up ourselves ..
私はまだ、愛する
♥ say me weak;
i aint strong
Monday, March 16, 2009 @ 7:50 PM
im deciding things in my heart and i aint going to tell anyone ..
except those deserve to know ..
he'll never know ..
unless others tell him abt it ..
but i hope he wun know anyway, since he doesnt want it to exist ..
♥ say me weak;
i aint strong
@ 6:40 PM
vomit ..
tummyache ..
giddyness ..
wad else ?
im nt feeling right and well now .. ):
♥ say me weak;
i aint strong
@ 11:02 AM
Late !
again ..
had a bad day ytd ..
morning kena called down to daddy dere ..
afternoon quarrel again ..
WTF
i need a good day pls ..
god, pls pity me can u ?
i need a good day like everybody else ..
am i supposed to grow up in such environment and situation ?
***
i seriously need a break ..
just days tt lets me feel normal ..
and now all this makes me feel tt ..
i aint normal ..
***
i can quarrel with u and stuffs ..
i can speak up my mind and all ..
i can say i dun understand u at all ..
but i have to admit ..
im in love with u ..
♥ say me weak;
i aint strong
Saturday, March 14, 2009 @ 9:39 AM
ok, joanna said she'll kip a lookout for me ..
snoopy sister wont be online for these few days ..
ive just lost a kor ..
ok, so many things happened ..
20th march will be my death day i supposed ..
results out ..
GOSH !
if i pass,
i'll have 4 more sem to go ..
and i'll pass my diploma !
hopefully.....
well ..
and now ..
shit me ..
WORK TIME SOON ..
im gonna rot at a certain place for 9 hours ..
somebody pls help me ..
lucky i stil gt jennifer to rot with me ..
hope i can walk ard and go find u ...
haha ..
________________________________________________________
anyway, these few days, suddenly feel lyk playing:
* pool
*bowling
*badminton
and im hoping to go watch some movies too ..
shit !
can i pls get more money first ??
*****
**ps. ppl, can u pls tell me wads nice and cheap to eat at vivo city ??
♥ say me weak;
i aint strong
Thursday, March 12, 2009 @ 4:02 PM
im learning to make my own decisions ..
im always trying to follow my heart ..
while my mind makes me feel sad ..
its all connected isnt it ?
while i felt left behind and alone ..
there wasnt anyone here ..
i needed someone ..
i seriously think me and him need a talk soon ..
its going to be a month since i cant slp ..
im doubting myself .. not him ..
sometimes i want him right here but it seems impossible ..
i didnt like the feeling of doubting someone ..
of not trusting someone, esp someone i love ..
i love him, yet now i didnt know wad he feels ..
he says he do, but he didnt say it right out ..
tat day after i said abt wei ting and that msn girl,
he started treatin me like he used to when he got mad ..
im just lost ..
saying sorry and apologising for my wrongs dont seem to help ..
its not like he can say sorry for things and i will forgive him and he'll do the same too..
mayb he does alot of thinking ..
just that neither of his thinking includes letting me know ..
i need to know something ..
i need to talk to him ..
i need to have my questions answered ..
i need him to answer ..
but ..
i love him ..
♥ say me weak;
i aint strong
Thursday, March 05, 2009 @ 8:29 PM
firstly upload a pic of someone slping ...
he didnt slp last nite and met me up this morning ..
just to accompany me go to sch ..
and he waited for me to finish my exams ..
and i appreciated and was happy with that ..
finished my EB and met up with mummy ..
went JP eat and shop ..
then returned home with my fav mango cake from four leaves ..
he was supposed to coach me with my maths ..
but i didnt wanna trouble him ..
summore its my birthday today ..
so i didnt wan to study bahx ..
i wanted to hug him tightly today ..
but there wasnt any chance for me to do so ..
we saw a shop in JP that allows us to design our own cake ..
and it looks pretty good ..
will be visiting amelia soon when she feels better i think ..
and now ..
i felt blessed and tempted to hug him tightly ..
oh ....
birthday wishes from alot of ppl ..
and im feeling more blessed ..
but i hoped to hear him say happy birthday to me in my face ..
hmmm .. ):
but anyway, thank you for spending your day with me ...
♥ say me weak;
i aint strong
Wednesday, March 04, 2009 @ 7:06 PM
suddenly realised ..
im hoping so much for him to be with me tomorrow just for my birthday ..
i hoped for flowers ..
i hoped for presents ..
i hoped for surprises ..
i hoped for you treating me like a princess ..
and i really just hope for you to be with me ..
♥ say me weak;
i aint strong
Sunday, March 01, 2009 @ 10:04 PM
today's supposed to be a special day ..
anniversary ..
but well ..
we're like this ...
how to ..?
he said maybe if we talk,
we could be together again ..
i asked him whether he got the wish to be back, he said yes ..
well ....
wad else to say ?
but i hope he knew im alrdy on e edge of bursting ..
while he knew im bursting soon ...
and im glad he knew ..
mayb bcuz of it, he could treat me better and cherish me more ..
however, just to admit it ..
i love him alot ..
♥ say me weak;
i aint strong
