Monday, September 29, 2008 @ 12:05 AM
i miss my girlfrens again ..
esp when i saw sha, dee and my baby rachel today while im working ..
i miss my bell and phyphy ..
and today's phyphy's bday ...
HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY DEAR ..
all e best for u ah !!
well, these few days ..
jus started working onli ..
andi alrdy had quarrels with laogong lerx ..
but nvm ..
we got back tgt again la ..
im hoping tt he learnt how to cherish me more than anythin else ...
bcuz i wun noe for his case ...
how would he feel aft losing me ...
that's a big IF, of cuz ..
yeah ...
im missing him all over again ...
im drooling abt him ..
i dreamt abt him ...
lyk, WTF ?
sounds lyk a horny bitch ..
esp funniest when i can see him for quite a number of days a week ..
but i miss e tym when i can look at him anytime i want while earning money ..
tats when im working at e same place as him in e past ..
while now ..
we're upstairs and downstairs ..
im up and he's down ..
anyway ..
its nt as if i can blog down wad ever tat happened to us for this few days ..
aft i left my poly ...
which he named me PhD ..
which stands for POLY HALFWAY DROPOUT ..
so he said i dun haf to go for my masters an stuffs alrdy ..
since ive got my PhD alrdy ..
HEHEH !
nt funny ..
i dun understand why these few days ..
or shld i say aft we patched up ..
my temper seems to be worse ..
i no longer want to gif in to him tat much ..
of cuz i still do ...
but tat would be aft i calm down ..
i had e prob of flaring up nowdays ..
for e slightest thing sometimes ..
but of cuz ..
those were repeated things tat i didnt like for as long as we're tgt ...
i told him today ..
my colleague has e plan of getting engaged ..
and we onli haf plans onli aft 10 yrs ..
when ure 28, im 27 ..
whereas i wanted to haf 2 yrs of living together first before getting a child anhaf to see wADd stuffs ..
but by the time we can get married,
our pace would be rushing ...
isnt it ?
married, den rushing to haf kids ...
:(
tats bad luhh ..
well ..
we'll jus haf to see wad we can do den ...
im saving for YOUR birthday present alrdy lorrs ..
which will cost me a bomb if im nt wrong ..
now bcuz of u ..
i haf to cut down on my cigarettes and expenses ...
tryin to save up to $1000 ..
jus for u ...
den save up $3500 for mayb ...
buying a motorcycle ?
OMG ..
im gonna faint man ...
things are so expensive nowadays ..
and if ive gt so much money ..
might as well i pay for my fees if im goin into SIM ..?
sigh ~
transport isit reali needed ?
im missing you right now ...
AGAIN ...
i hate it when ive nt hug u enuff ..
when ive nt kissed ur lips longer ..
when ive nt hold on to ur hands longer ..
i want you by my side ..
every day and nite ...
so tature e last person i see before i slp ..
and when i wake up ..
I LOVE YOU ... ♥♥
♥ say me weak;
i aint strong
Saturday, September 27, 2008 @ 9:36 PM
well, busy with work recently..
no time for my dears ..
but met up with melanie(7 yrs gf) and chai hong ..
haha ..
dey had to pei wo wait for my dear laogong finish work den dey can go back ...
so poor thing ...
hmmm ..
jus started work for a few days ..
and ended up having a quarrel with laogong lerx ...
of cus,
we're back again luhh ..
hope we wun be quarrelling again la ..
sian ..
anyway,
working with my new colleagues is fine ..
and i had free pizza ytd ...
naima treated ... :)
thks ah !!
ok, done with blogging ..
wun be blogging so soon ...
working !! :)
♥ say me weak;
i aint strong
Tuesday, September 23, 2008 @ 8:52 AM
out of a sudden,
i miss my gals alot once more ..
its been quite long since ive last seen dem ...
and i wonder if dey miss me too ..
but i seriously miss u dears ..
bell, phy & rachel ..
love you gals ..
im starting work soon ..
and i hate to leave u gals .. :(
♥ say me weak;
i aint strong
Wednesday, September 17, 2008 @ 11:00 AM
im disappointed and ve gt no more anticipation ..
i dont noe wad's wrong with me ..
and i dun wish to find out ..
things happen to me ..
alot of 'em ..
and im tired of it alrdy ..
why cant dey go 'poof' and disappear ?
and yet ..
ure giving me headaches ..
as if im nt confused enuff .. :(
♥ say me weak;
i aint strong
Friday, September 12, 2008 @ 9:49 PM
ok, today's RACHEL's bday !!
went down to sch to gif her a surprise and i did ..
she cried ..
LOL ..
laogong fetched me to and fro ...
acc me to take e cake from causeway for rachel ..
den we celebrated and went down to pasir ris farmway ..
seen lots of puppies and now i feel lyk buying one ..
DAMN !!
no money how buy ??
summore he nid to psycho his mother first .. -.-
we shall see .........
anyway ..
HAPPY BIRTHDAY RACHEL !!
love ya,bell and phyllis always !! :)
and of cuz ..
i love my laogong too ..
bcuz he brings me ard .. =DD
♥ say me weak;
i aint strong
Thursday, September 11, 2008 @ 10:35 PM
i miss him ..
i miss his hugs ..
i miss his kisses ..
all e motivations from him are not here when my head's gonna burst .. :(
i wan him with me right now !
sighs ~
♥ say me weak;
i aint strong
@ 8:40 PM
well, had been quite a few days since i update my profile ..
had been out with mummy and sister with jarrell with us ..
he rode his bike while mummy drive and he follow .. :)
and i miss him ..
bcuz he didnt mit us today ..
sadded .. :(
i wan to mit him ..
and im wishing that he'll accompany me tml .. :(
IM HOPING AND WISHING !! :(
hope he will ..
sigh ~
ILY
♥ say me weak;
i aint strong
Tuesday, September 09, 2008 @ 11:05 PM
'Work like you don't need the money,
love like you've never been hurt,
and dance like you do when nobody's watching.'
i wish to act as non-chalant as possible ..
but i cant ..
♥ say me weak;
i aint strong
Monday, September 08, 2008 @ 9:45 PM
im gonna quit rp ..
im gonna go SIM ..
im gonna go work ..
and earn money ..
for myself and for my studies !! :)
♥ say me weak;
i aint strong
@ 6:49 AM
well ..
laogong met up with my folks on saturday lerx ..
before tat ..
we still went down to bike shop for his bike ..
den ended up waiting for bloody long for the parts to arrive .. :(
and so,
he was late to mit my dad ..
my dad had to wait for his arrival ..
haha ..
he said he wasnt scared ..
jus nervous luhh ..
ohh ..
didnt noe he would be nervous one la ..
but well ..
daddy tok to him after mummy intro him ...
and we ate dinner together ..
which is OMG ..
cuz my mummy lost her standard today ...
no nice food !!
lol ..
bt laogong didnt mind abt it luhh ..
he jus say gt food very good alrdy ...
dun be picky ..
well ..
hope in future he can come up whenever he wants den ..
no more hiding in my cupboard .. :)
i love you no matter wad ..
but pls dont let me be angry ..
i dun wanna be mad at u ..
seriously .. :)
ILY ♥♥
♥ say me weak;
i aint strong
Thursday, September 04, 2008 @ 8:39 PM
im unhappy ..
seriously ..
i tink i shldnt even rely on u anymore ..
i shldnt rely on u having ur vroom vroom ..
den u will ride me ard ..
i shldnt !
i mean ..
ur bike nid petrol ..
petrol nid money ..
den u nid money too ...
i dun wanna tink further ..
im nt unhappy tt u arent coming for me anymore ..
jus tt ..
i felt hurt ?
i mean ..
i seriousy feel so happy and blessed when u came for me in sch ..
even when its raining ytd ..
but its jus me feeling upset ..
bcuz im having e feeling tt im going back to u fully alrdy ..
den this happens ..
made me feel upset ..
we've gone thru so much,
i dun wanna say anythin more ..
im damn tired ..
had a headache ..
but bcuz of wad u said ..
i stay in sch e whole day jus wanting u to fetch me ..
if tt's supposed to be my reward for staying in school ..
i hope tt would be everyday ..
but instead ....
nvm ..
e thing is ..
whenever u haf ur bike ..
jus a little thing wrong done by me to ur bike ..
u'll start to blow up a little ..
so wad am i supposed to say ?
i dun wanna say anythin ..
i feel inferior ..
i feel worse dan ur bike ..
i felt being threatened ..
i felt ur bike is taking away my place ..
i felt jealous ..
ok ?
well ..
i didnt wanna say anymore ..
i could go on to sch without u sending ..
u knew it ..
and as wad ive said when we're at east coast park tt nite ..
im nt prepared to put in alot yet ..
and it will take tym to ..
and maybe this has affected me ..
but i dun wanna say anymore ..
i mean ..
i know my feeling's true ..
i love you ..
but some times ..
u make me bloody angry ..
jus tt i didnt wanna say anythin abt it ..
sigh ..
however ..
i still love you ..
♥ say me weak;
i aint strong
@ 9:08 AM
ok, so now im bloody damn bored in this new class ...and this faci is just a new faci in this fucking sch luhh .. :(she said she was previously from ngee ann poly, which is laogon's sch luhh ..bloody hell ..why muz i learn computing and mathematics ??its damn bored and i fucking dun understand a single thing out of it ..FUCK !!ytd science and now today maths ..and im in e same grp as genevieve again ..did i spell her name correctly ??hmmmmm ............well ..i cant even pronounce her name ..can spell very good alrdy luhh ..ok, im bored in this class alrdy luhh ..seriously deres nth much for me to do ..and im bored alrdy ..met up some of W46L for lunch ...and now im stil nt full yet ..im waitng for laogong to come and fetch me home ..which he promised if i were to stay in class for e whole day .. :(but now he's still slping luhh .. sigh ..i miss him again ..and i miss his hugs again .. :(
♥ say me weak;
i aint strong
Wednesday, September 03, 2008 @ 10:39 AM
shucks !
im now stuck in my new class ..
like doing nothing at al ??
OMG ..
Im bored ..
im rotting ..
im dying !!!
i miss him so badly ..
seriously ..
i wanna be with him ..
i dont wanna come into my new class ..
its boring ..
and im afraid ..
of stepping into this class and acting lyk an idiot ..
cuz i noe nothing about this class ..
and now im gonna add in pictures of my stay with him .. :)
we went alot of places ..
we've gone almost all of singapore ..
nice rite ?
jus bcuz he has his bike ..
so we can go all around .. :)
i love him ..
i love him more ..
bcuz he bring me go gaigai ..
i love him more and more ..
bcuz he fetch me to sch today ..
jus bcuz its first day of sch .. :)
picture time ....
our mac meal at east coast park ..
2 ppl share one mcnugget meal ..
so poor thing, cuz his bike nid PETROL !!
slpy laogong ..
lol ..
but no choice luhh ..
he tired den stil bring me go shop shop ..
at esplanade he alrdy dosing off ..
den i met melanie ..
so he no choice ..
haha ..
i love e 5 days we're together ..
but it seems too short ..
i wan more !!
i wan more !!
and mummy say daddy accept him alrdy ..
asking me to bring him up on fine day ..
lol ..
see ?
laogong ..
e day we're waiting for is reaching !! :)
and i love you soooooo damn much ..
and im glad we spoke things up tat day and now we know wad each other is thinkin .. :))
lovelove ..
♥ say me weak;
i aint strong
