Thursday, October 30, 2008 @ 10:30 PM
i miss everyone so much ..
and i missed my date with my dears ..
damn !!
♥ say me weak;
i aint strong
Tuesday, October 28, 2008 @ 11:35 AM
i needed
no one to control me and my life ..
absolutely
no one .. i dun need someone telling me this and that ..
telling me my job is useless ..
or telling me its nt worth it ..
i cant go to any events ..
i cant go to anything ..
im worse dan a dog den ..
if its tt case ..
pls kip a dog and not give birth to one of ur own ...
ure onli making us cant breathe ..
and now i fucking cant breathe ..
im having thoughts abt my future alrdy ..
u bursts out my hope and stuffs ..
and fucking wanna control my life ..
jus becuz ure my mother ..
doesnt mean ure entitled to do this ..
i need my life and freedom that i deserve ..
i deserve to choose my life ..
and to choose my own path ..
nobody is to influence my life ..
no one shld and no one will be able to ..
so fucking stop being irritating and come bothering my life ..
i seriously hope so ..
and i fucking seriously tink if i were to say this out to her yrs ago ..
things might haf got better ..
but i cant ..
i cant bring myself to tel her tt ..
i dun wanna hurt her heart ..
instead ...
i got hurt more ..
♥ say me weak;
i aint strong
Monday, October 20, 2008 @ 12:15 AM
ok ..
has been workin lyk mad ..
and now having a fuckin headache again ..
fever,
AGAIN ..
38.9 ..
sian ..
tml nid work again ..
im bored of work ?
esp when i had to travel down to parkway parade today ..
its bored in e bus ..
but at least i had huiru to acc me tok on e fone ..
AT LEAST ...
i fuckin didnt noe i would reach dere within 1 hour ..
and i reached at 1pm ..
wtf ..
had to wait for time to pass ..
while tinkin of helpin huiru scold e guy ..
end up ..
he nv ans ..
waited for e night to pass so i could scold him ..
den huiru say dun nid alrdy ..
hais ..
no one for me to vent my anger on ..
sad case .. :(
laogong also not free to acc me ..
onli tt he acc me tok awhile before he do his things ..
and i duno wad he did ..
onli noe tt ..
im fuckin
bored and
moodless ..
now i haf to ofline and go to bed ..
had to wake up at
8am tml to prepare for work ..
and now ..
its alrdy
12.30am ...
zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz ...
bed ..pls let me slp on u without nightmares ..
time ..pls pass by slower so i could enjoy my slp ...
thank you very much ..it'll be much appreciated ... :D
♥ say me weak;
i aint strong
Friday, October 17, 2008 @ 9:43 AM
so long nv updte my blog alrdy ..
ever since i started work ..
time seems not enuff for me ...
24 hours is not enough for me and laogong ..
10 hours slpin, 8 hours working, 3 hours traveling and bathing, 2 hours eating and makeups ..
im onli left with 1 hour with laogong ...
things dont feel the same anymore either ...
im always feeling somethin amiss ..
but i didnt wanna say anythin ..
always feeling weird yet i duno wad is wrong ...
feelin a bit distanced between us alrdy ...
because your're diverting ur attention to so many things ..
work,friends,family,bike,me ...
i do hope tt u can finish up paying ur mummy e money u owe ..
but dun tire urself ..
lyk now when u're sick ..
wad am i supposed to do den ?
while i noe today im also going to be sick alrdy ..
fever last nite suddenly, now headache and bloody hell just vomited .. :(
♥ say me weak;
i aint strong
Friday, October 10, 2008 @ 11:26 PM
i was once so childish,
calling a crush, love ..
when i dont even understand wad is love ..
until i'm ready and all prepared to love someone totally and give him everything,
thats love ..
but ends up due to my silly-ness,
i always give him stupid things ...
♥ say me weak;
i aint strong
Wednesday, October 01, 2008 @ 10:57 PM
well ..
tired of work alrdy ...
i noe its fast ..
but im nt reali enjoying it much ..
ppl from my workplace doesnt reali be good to me ?
well ..
they're fine ..
its jus i dun feel close to dem ...
mayb bcuz im new ...
hope its tat case ..
at least now i got linda and nicole to accompany me sometimes ..
mayb bcuz of our age gaps ?
mayb so ..
today is me and laogong de anniversary ..
yet im working and he's working too ...
esp him ..
he's bloody busy ..
until e point tat he nv reply my sms ..
:(
tats sad la ...
i wished him happy anniversary ytd midnight alrdy ..
but i supposed he was slpin ..
today he told me in advance also ..
in case he's too busy lyk now ...
being unable to reply me ..
didnt noe whether is it bcuz of his fone or he's busy ..
sigh ~
IMY so badly ..
esp today is our anniversary ...
wanted to celebrate with you ..
but no chance to ..
:(
♥ say me weak;
i aint strong
