might be seeing him later ..
going to find the tree top walk ..
asked him abt it ytd and he wanted to go too ..
hopefully he can wake up then ..
_______________________________________________9am_______
_______________________________________________9am_______
didnt slp well last nite ..
thought abt things between me and him in the past few months ..
thinking whether shld i make a decision before all's decided ..
i was hurt by him ..
wasnt mad at all ..
but just e hurt itself could kill ..
i wonder wad i shld do ..
i wonder would i even dare get into another r/s again ..
mayb this is e good time for us to think ..
mayb its better for us to stay lyk tiz for awhile ..
to let us think things thru ..
e past 3 yrs is something nice, fun, lovely and also partially sad ..
there were lovely memories as well as sad memories ..
but i have to admit,
he became part of me ..
he became part of me ..
his life is added into mine ..
and sometimes i feel as if my world revolves ard him ..
sometimes it feels good to be loved..
but it isnt nice when i had to worry abt him so much ..
its nv nice to worry and nag at someone ..
just that whether e person deserve it or not ..
i didnt mean to be lyk ur mum to nag and stuffs..
but sometimes i didnt know wad were u doing ..
ive had worries ..
but u didnt understand why ..
sigh ..
met him up just now ..
went to e reservoir and it rained ..
we shared e same umbrella and it felt good ..
but however ..
it felt awkward ..
but i still like to be with him ..
went home and he tagged along too ..
he came up awhile den went off ..
i tried to hold him,
but he didnt want to ..
felt rejected but i hid it ..
im tired of being weak .. ):
but i couldnt be strong either ..
sigh ~
and i started to miss him again already ..
couldnt finish up dinner just now ..
didnt have the mood and appetite ..
and im exhausted ..
i thank him for spending some time with me ..
even though we know it feels weird ..
but i still appreciate it ..
and,
I LOVE HIM ..
but u didnt understand why ..
sigh ..
met him up just now ..
went to e reservoir and it rained ..
we shared e same umbrella and it felt good ..
but however ..
it felt awkward ..
but i still like to be with him ..
went home and he tagged along too ..
he came up awhile den went off ..
i tried to hold him,
but he didnt want to ..
felt rejected but i hid it ..
im tired of being weak .. ):
but i couldnt be strong either ..
sigh ~
and i started to miss him again already ..
couldnt finish up dinner just now ..
didnt have the mood and appetite ..
and im exhausted ..
i thank him for spending some time with me ..
even though we know it feels weird ..
but i still appreciate it ..
and,
I LOVE HIM ..
♥ say me weak;
i aint strong
