im learning to make my own decisions ..
im always trying to follow my heart ..
while my mind makes me feel sad ..
its all connected isnt it ?
while i felt left behind and alone ..
there wasnt anyone here ..
i needed someone ..
i seriously think me and him need a talk soon ..
its going to be a month since i cant slp ..
im doubting myself .. not him ..
sometimes i want him right here but it seems impossible ..
i didnt like the feeling of doubting someone ..
of not trusting someone, esp someone i love ..
i love him, yet now i didnt know wad he feels ..
he says he do, but he didnt say it right out ..
tat day after i said abt wei ting and that msn girl,
he started treatin me like he used to when he got mad ..
im just lost ..
saying sorry and apologising for my wrongs dont seem to help ..
its not like he can say sorry for things and i will forgive him and he'll do the same too..
mayb he does alot of thinking ..
just that neither of his thinking includes letting me know ..
i need to know something ..
i need to talk to him ..
i need to have my questions answered ..
i need him to answer ..
but ..
i love him ..
im always trying to follow my heart ..
while my mind makes me feel sad ..
its all connected isnt it ?
while i felt left behind and alone ..
there wasnt anyone here ..
i needed someone ..
i seriously think me and him need a talk soon ..
its going to be a month since i cant slp ..
im doubting myself .. not him ..
sometimes i want him right here but it seems impossible ..
i didnt like the feeling of doubting someone ..
of not trusting someone, esp someone i love ..
i love him, yet now i didnt know wad he feels ..
he says he do, but he didnt say it right out ..
tat day after i said abt wei ting and that msn girl,
he started treatin me like he used to when he got mad ..
im just lost ..
saying sorry and apologising for my wrongs dont seem to help ..
its not like he can say sorry for things and i will forgive him and he'll do the same too..
mayb he does alot of thinking ..
just that neither of his thinking includes letting me know ..
i need to know something ..
i need to talk to him ..
i need to have my questions answered ..
i need him to answer ..
but ..
i love him ..
♥ say me weak;
i aint strong