everytime i close my eyes, i see him ..
everytime i tried to sleep, i thought of him ..
the only thing i want now is an answer, yet he doesnt wanna say it out ...
if he didnt hug me that last time that day ..
i would be able to leave peacefully ..
but now, bcuz of his touch, i gain hope again ..
yet he doesnt wanna tell me what i shld do with that hope ..
and now whenever i close my eyes, i think of that night ..
we were still fine ..
maybe he just wanted to give me a good memory ..
but if that is so, why cant he just give me an answer ??
he just drags and drags ..
i will let go if he wanna just be friends ..
i will hang on, if he wants us to be back ..
but now, when im stuck in between, i feel terrible ..
i cant concentrate on my studies ..
i cant do no shit ..
what i need is just an answer ..
ive cried till my eyes hurt ..
when i went to a recent wedding ..
ive thought of how it would be like if it was my own wedding ..
but when that thought comes, it hurts ..
reality hurts ..
but now, when im not afraid of the reality, he doesnt wanna let me know what he wants ..
he just left me hanging there ..
i didnt wanna guess his answer, bcuz i didnt wan him to say i didnt understand him ..
i wanted his direct answer, yet he doesnt give me ..
i aint the girl everyone knew anymore ..
i kept everything in my heart ..
i kept him in my heart ..
i wanted to let go ..
but i didnt know how ..
i need him to let me go ...
but he didnt ..
instead, bcuz of his disappearance, he hanged on to me ..
i wouldnt wanna ask anyone what i shld do alrdy ..
bcuz i know ppl ardd me has tried to wake me up ..
i was the one to ignore everything ..
and continue being dumb ..
i was the one being blindly persistent ..
but right now, i only need his answer ..
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♥ say me weak;
i aint strong
