simple. dark.

all the past things that we've done together before ..

it all seems so past ...

whenever i see couples on the streets these days ..

they remind me of u ..

where i remembered we also used to go shopping together ..

holding hands tightly ..

hugging each other ..

and if i wore a skirt out ..

u'll stand in front me to block me ..
everything uve done, touches deep down my heart ..

i knew from the start i disliked the you when i first know u ..
i dislike it when u stay overnight with ur friends outside ..
i dislike it when u go out with girls together ..
i dislike it when u dont tell me what u feel ..
i dislike it when u smoke and dont quit ..
i dislike it when u were once so rebellious ..
i dislike it when ur heart wasnt fully mine ..
i dislike it when u show ur temper to me ..
i dislike it when u keep talking to me abt your 'her' ..
i dislike it when u treated breakup as something so light ..
but no matter what u do ..
i didnt dislike u ..
instead, i loved u more ..

i knew u changed alot throughout the years ..
i didnt say ..
but i know ..
u knew i didnt like u to go out and overnight with ur friends..
and u stopped doing that ..
u knew i didnt like u to smoke ..
and u tried to quit it ..
u knew i didnt like u to go out with girls ..
and u stopped it ..
u knew i hated u to show ur temper to me for nothing ..
and u tried to curb it ..
u knew i hated u comparing me with 'her' ..
and u didnt do that anymore ..
u knew i hated alot of things...
and u did it all for me ..
i knew it, i knew it deep inside me ...
but i just didnt voice it out...

although i shld love u for who u are ..
but sometimes, its just like being over possessive of something/someone ..
and i did ..
i was ..
and now ..
i lost u...
i loved u and i lost u ..
i tried giving myself a deadline now ..
i duno whether things can go back to the past or not ..
but i still want to dedicate this to u ..
even if u no longer have feelings for me ..
its alright ..
i will learn to be strong ..
i will learn to love ..
i will learn to not be possessive ..
and if u find that ive changed alot since this period ..
im sorry ..
but no matter what ..
trust me ..
i am still me ..
the girl whom u once loved ..

thank you for being by my side ..

on the very last day of last year ..

and on the first day of this year ..

although i had a bad start ..

i dont blame u ..

because, at least, i was happy until the last day ..

thank you for everything ..

the last time i will say,

i love you..

Labels: final chapter, love

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